I have been fighting an inward battle with myself on a handful of things.
i am doing okay, you don't have to worry. but it stinks regardless.
i just had never expected things to get this way, not now.
regardless, i HAVE to hold it together for the sake of my son.
I had my final baby doctors appointment this afternoon.
after shipping Mikes first care package of little things he's been asking for.
there still wasn't much progress with him, i was fairly disappointed.
he is estimated between 7 and 7 and a half pounds currently.
and he got his Evitction Notice Date.
that of course, i will not be announcing.
there's light at the end of the tunnel afteall. it makes this all so much more real and terrifying.
i can honestly say, i can't wait for him to get here, i am very scared, but i have my friends support and hands to hold, i know that everything will be okay.
my entire life is about to change, i have never wanted to embrace anything more in my entire life.
i am SO ready to be Ryders Mommy. <3
i've decided not to update every night, seeing as my life equals nothing right now.
i went to the library today. =]
and i sleep a shit ton.
but i more than likely won't update as often as i had planned to.
oh well, more time gone!
less time til.
stay safe, wherever you are.