Day Nineteen; Eviction Notice!

I have been fighting an inward battle with myself on a handful of things.

i am doing okay, you don't have to worry. but it stinks regardless.

i just had never expected things to get this way, not now. 

regardless, i HAVE to hold it together for the sake of my son.

I had my final baby doctors appointment this afternoon.

after shipping Mikes first care package of little things he's been asking for. 

there still wasn't much progress with him, i was fairly disappointed.

he is estimated between 7 and 7 and a half pounds currently.

and he got his Evitction Notice Date.

that of course, i will not be announcing.

there's light at the end of the tunnel afteall. it makes this all so much more real and terrifying.

i can honestly say, i can't wait for him to get here, i am very scared, but i have my friends support and hands to hold, i know that everything will be okay. 

my entire life is about to change, i have never wanted to embrace anything more in my entire life.

i am SO ready to be Ryders Mommy. <3

i've decided not to update every night, seeing as my life equals nothing right now.

i went to the library today. =]

and i sleep a shit ton. 

but i more than likely won't update as often as i had planned to. 

oh well, more time gone!

less time til.

stay safe, wherever you are.